New Beginnings… 25/01/10

WOW what an incredibly difficult week! Whew glad it’s over. Can we begin again?

WOW what an incredibly awe-inspiring week! Whew glad it happened to me.

For my post today I’m going back to basics. Focusing on my small accomplishments and looking forward to an amazing Twenty-Ten. Last week was insanely busy, stressful and at times a very exciting week.  It all culminated with the end of my “run” to be one of the next mamavation moms. Unfortunately I was not chosen, but the outpouring of support I’ve received over the past 4 months has been incredible and so very much needed. I thank you all for that. (Passing out a virtual hug to each and every one of you!) Not only has your support of my journey been inspiring, even more so inspiring has been seeing so many of YOUR journeys beginning! I like to think for some of you I’ve been a part of that and want you to know that I will always be here for each and every one of you. Every step of the way.

Thursday for me was difficult and disappointing. For months I’ve chased after something that twice now I’ve failed to get to. I’ve invested time and emotion and so many other things that I just needed to de-compress for a day or two. I asked myself why a “title” was so important to me?…I asked myself is it really what defines me and my journey?…I asked myself if it has been worth it?…I asked myself WHY am I asking myself so many questions!

A response to all of those questions can be summed up in a few sentences. It wasn’t a title that I wanted or needed, it was the support and I still have that. I did want the title to show those wonderful supporters of mine that I could do it and would do it for them, but you know what I STILL AM doing it and on my own terms for all of us. I will continue to fight this battle and come out on top! I will continue to inspire and motivate others to take back their lives and truly LIVE their best life! I hope I can define my journey with a path of honesty and realness and feeling. I hope I can define my journey and fill it with passion and hard-work and excitement. I hope I can define my journey by inspiring you through it all. I hope to look back on this time in my life and say YES I did that and that was ONLY the beginning of better things to come. More opportunities for creativity and all good things. Making a trail of blessings along the way and not stopping ever. I know that it was worth it and the connections I’ve made are sincere and a blessing to me. There is part of a song (There’s a World Out There) by Brandt Paul that really sums it all up… 

…There’s a world out there and I wanna be in it
I got a life and I’m gonna live it
Don’t tell me the sky’s the limit
There’s footprints on the moon
I wanna do my walkin’ down the road less traveled
Sew my dreams where they won’t unravel
If you play it safe you won’t get nowhere
I can’t stay in here when there’s a world out there…

So as you see, there IS an entire world out there and beyond. I’m no longer sitting on the couch waiting for it to come get me. I’ve jumped in head first and am fighting for my dreams. They’re taking shape and so am I…

P.S. Last week I lost .6 for a grand total of 18 POUNDS LOST after 13 weeks.