Believe 2 Achieve… 02/04/10

Back in October I began this journey of weight loss and self discovery. Back in October I wanted to believe I could do it. That I could finally lose. This. Weight. Back in October I promised myself and others that I would DO it. That I would finally kick fats ass and get healthy. For myself and for my family. I wanted needed accountability and so desperately was searching for someone, anyone who felt what I did. Someone who could relate and trudge through this thing called loss with me and succeed.

A little over five months later, how have I done? How have we done? Most importantly how have YOU done?

I’m ecstatic to report that I’m half way to my goal. HALF WAY.

TWENTY-FIVE pounds gone and lost forever. Over twenty-five inches gone too.  I’ve dropped 2-3 sizes (depending on the brand;) and have finally started to feel good again. These changes have not been easy to get to nor is my battle finished. I’m far from done, but I am half way there.

For many reasons the hardest part is now.

The part where I can’t get complacent with this new found energy and must finish the race to get to the lifetime of change. The little skinny angel on my shoulder is constantly giving me high fives and “way to go’s” and on the other shoulder the little fat devil is saying come on just eat a dorito.

Don’t get me wrong that little fat devil has won a few times but more than not good times have prevailed over the bad and I’m still on my wagon. But the change is that I’m not just sitting on the wagon waiting for someone to pull me along. Now, I’m doing the pulling and pushing and plan on running to that finish line with it on newly toned shoulders, crushing that little fat devil once and for all.

The other change in me is that after five months of evaluation and re-evaluation and a lot of hard questions I don’t think I truly believed I could come this far. Sure I wanted to believe it but don’t think I really knew what I was capable of. What so many of YOU are also capable of. What I KNOW can happen if you believe.

Five months ago I said “I would be ecstatic if I lost twenty pounds. Over the moon if I lost anymore. My goal is fifty.” Today almost a half a year later, I’m half way there and am ecstatic. Not quite over the moon because now I know what I’m capable of and expect no less than those twenty-five more pounds gone before I go jumping over any moon.

Inspiration is key. I’ve also had the opportunity to be blessed with so many new friends I’ve met along this journey. Friends who have inspired, supported, pushed and believed in me all along the way. Many of whom I’ve had the chance to meet in real life and be touched with their kind words.

I’m continuously learning and finding that now that I truly believe anything is possible. A wise new friend sent me this quote by Janis Joplin: “Don’t compromise yourself. You’re all you’ve got.”

True, although I take it this way….THIS body is all I’ve got. The only one. I can no longer compromise it because not only do I count on living a long, healthy life for myself but for my children and my wonderful family and friends and supporters. So this body is all I’ve got, but I’ve also got so many people standing beside me that there is no other alternative other than to believe and achieve.